Saturday, August 1, 2009

Setting Sun.

I am the LORD, and there is no other;
apart from me there is no God.
I will strengthen you,
though you have not acknowledged me,

so that from the rising of the sun
to the place of its setting
men may know there is none besides me.
I am the LORD, and there is no other.

I form the light and create darkness,
I bring prosperity and create disaster;
I, the LORD, do all these things.

(Isaiah 45:5-7)

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Dear Kate...

Hi. :)

Here are a few pictures I took today of Kallie. I was sitting at home messing with my camera, taking pictures of my cat because she was the only one around - and then I thought, "Why don't I see what Kallie's doing?" So I texted her and asked if she wanted to be a model for a little while. She graciously consented, and here is what I got. (Blogger posted them in reverse order, so we'll start at the end. Austin joined us for a couple, too.)

You can see the rest on my Flickr. :)

Monday, June 15, 2009

South Carolina.

Hello, hello!
I really should get to bed soon -- I have small group tomorrow morning, but I thought I'd take a few minutes to blog.

The trip to South Carolina was awesome! It was a lot of fun, the wedding was so, so nice -- the whole weekend was a huge blessing to me. I really enjoyed the South. Just being there for a few days reminded me of the things that are really important in life: family, friends, freedom, and faith. I'm not sure much else matters quite as much as those. And I want to invest my heart and life in each one of them. That's basically the trip in a nutshell. I can't think of a better way to summarize it other than it was a huge blessing! Here are some pictures:

This is, obviously, from the actual wedding. :)

It was pretty cool being a bridesmaid (my second time, so far). Ron and Jessica are great, and I'm so happy for them. My favorite part of the wedding was during the lighting of the unity candle - they requested "The Best Thing" by Relient K to be played. (Totally stole my wedding song...haha!)

This is at the farm we stayed at - such a beautiful place. I miss the South!

Annie & I loved the mountains!

This was at Fall's Park in Greenville - really cool.

There were lots of carvings in the tree, which was also pretty cool.

I am off to take a quick shower, then I'm heading to bed. Happy Monday!

PS: Check out my Flickr for more pics!

Saturday, May 23, 2009

one month later...

school year is over; summer has begun.
i am employed, taking a class next month (twice a week in the mornings), leading a small group, and taking trips to south carolina (bridesmaid'ing it up) and minnesota (music fest)! ...all Lord willing. :)

what a great summer.

i also got my nikon d40 this week! quite exciting. i'm learning and playing.

finishing up some laundry, then off to bed soon. so tired.

heading to the bourb tomorrow to hang out with some friends, then going to chicago for the day monday. great opportunities to have some fun with my new camera. :)

here are some pics from my baby. ha.

annie got her associates degree this weekend. :)

me looking nasty while painting my sister's new house. :)


Lord, keep teaching and guiding me. continue to provide evidence of Your faithfulness, grace, love, and truth. forgive me for my doubts; soften my heart. teach me to love and serve as You do. may You always be first in my heart and life. let Your love be strong.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

I went on a balloon ride; I can see everything from up there.

The end of the year is crazy! At first as I was going over the things that I need to work on and complete within the last month, I was thinking that it didn't really seem too bad...but as the end of the year gets closer and closer, it feels like my to-do list keeps getting longer and longer! Sometimes it gets a bit overwhelming, but just knowing that a month from now I will be on summer vacation helps with the anxious feelings. It even kinda makes me sad because summer means that I won't see my friends from school nearly as much, in addition to the other people on campus who I don't really know but who I would like to know (ya know? ;)).

Anyways, the end is in sight - and I will be half-way done with college. But then there's grad school. Ha. ;) One step at a time...

Here are some pictures of my life lately...

Roomie Date @ The Art Institute Day back in February.
Apparently, "Jim" from The Office was there the same day as us! Haha.

Typical train ride back from Chicago.
(This is one of my roomies/bffs Emily.)

The choir girls seeing who's the palest/most pale (?).
Guess who won?

Faith, me, and Ashley being cool.


The ONU 5-k that Annie & Amy ran in! :)

Mom, Ashley, and I made these over Easter break. Aren't they cute? :)

This was Walk For Life for the local Pregnancy Resource Center, which helps out expecting moms. That day, they raised over $5,000, which will go to several different things for the moms & the center. Part of the money will go to buying ultrasound machines, which is so important because close to 98% of women who see a picture of their baby say no to abortion!
(Emily and I are in the white sweat-shirts.)

Anyways, that's about it. It's been almost 2 months since Sky's death. The family is doing all right. Easter was a little teary, but the Lord continues to provide us with strength and peace. I just pray that my entire family would come to know Him. Pray for us!


Thursday, March 12, 2009

I need You here, I need You now; I need security somehow.

Life has been kind of hard the last two weeks. My family and I have been hurting and grieving the loss of my cousin, Schuyler, who was killed in Afghanistan. But because of the Lord's strength, we are getting through.

I start class again on Monday, which might be nice to get back on a schedule - but it's been so helpful to be home with my family while all of this is still so new. No one at school has been affected by this like my family and I have. It's hard to be the only one. I am grateful for my friends at school who have been praying for us, but it's not exactly the same as being with the ones who are feeling how I'm feeling. If that makes sense. On the one hand, I don't want to draw any attention because of this - but on the other hand, I don't want people to just forget about it or think that I'm just fine. Because, really, I'm not. I know that, eventually, I will be okay - but right now, I'm just not. And I think that's pretty normal after a family member passes away. But it's hard to go about my daily routine, especially when I'm away from home...away from the people who are struggling in the same way that I am.

Pray that I can show grace to my friends at school when I'm feeling sad about Schuyler and they're worried about boyfriend-girlfriend stuff - issues that are usually fine to talk about with me, but since Sky's death...I don't know, it's just like I kind of learned more about things that are truly important in life. Not that boy-girl stuff isn't important - it can be. In fact, that's been a topic at the front of my mind this semester as I take Sociology of Marriage. ;) But I guess there's just a time for everything. Right now, for me and my family, this is a time to mourn.

So again, pray that God will help me show grace to my friends at school who may not be as sensitive to my feelings right now (because sometimes I'm just not very good at telling people how I'm feeling - so they may not even realize that I'm struggling). Pray that God will provide me a solid friend at school who I can talk to about this - or about anything - when I need to get something off my chest.

Even through the sadness and grief, I know that the Lord is still good. He is faithful and full of love and compassion. It's difficult to remember during times like this, but I know that it's true - regardless of how I feel. Pray that my family will see Him through this and want to know Him personally.


..:: love and miss you, sky...::
Schuyler: February 17, 1984 - February 24, 2009.


The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them;
he delivers them from all their troubles.

The LORD is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

A righteous man may have many troubles,
but the LORD delivers him from them all;

he protects all his bones,
not one of them will be broken

-Psalm 34:17-20

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

for you.

i need You.
it just doesn't seem real.
help them to see You through this tragedy.


"Suffer hardship with me, like a good soldier of Christ Jesus."

~2 Timothy 2:3

you were a good soldier.
you always lived life to the fullest.
you weren't afraid of anything.
i truly loved you, though i never told you.

this one's for you, sky.

Thursday, January 29, 2009


i know You can take my questions.
You can handle my doubts.
You know that i'm kind of confused....
You hear my prayers,
You listen and care and work.
but i am nothing compared to You --
not to say that You don't care about me.
oh, how deeply You care for me and love me
and value me.
You are the only One who defines me.
but You are so big,
You are so above everything and everyone.
how can we even begin to think
we have You figured out?
do you really change Your mind, like he said?
i have always known You as my Rock, the consistent One
who never changes.
and that has always been a good thing.
You always have the best in mind.
You are a sovereign God.
Your thoughts and ways are higher,
so much higher than mine.
i can trust You at all times.
here is my heart.
it is fully Yours.
questions and all.
surrendered to You.
You are bigger than my questions.
You are the answer.
You are Truth.

Take my heart, I lay it down
At the feet
of You who's crowned
Take my life
I'm letting go
I lift it up
to You who's throned

Take my fret, take my fear
All I have I'm leaving here
Be all my hopes, be all my dreams
You're my delights
Be my everything

And I will worship You, Lord
Only You, Lord
And I will bow down before You
Only You, Lord

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Being Apathetic's a Pathetic Way to Be.

Classes start a week from today. I'm getting ready to go back to school...well, at least mentally and emotionally. I haven't actually started packing or anything, but I'm ready to get back on a schedule, see friends from school, and get into my classes - even though that means homework is going to be a part of my life once again.. This break has been really relaxing, and it's been great spending time with my family and friends at home -- and it's always nice to have a break from responsibility. :)

I always seem to think that something great or exciting will happen over breaks - and usually that never really happens. But what am I anticipating? I came home for Christmas break to spend time with my family and to relax after a busy semester. And that's exactly what I did! Here are some things I accomplished this break:

1. Finished watching the complete series of The Gilmore Girls (for the second time) with Annie.
2. Watched a lot of Freaks and Geeks on youtube.
3. Bought a bookbag...for a quarter! (Yay for Christmas gift cards.)
4. Almost finished a book (it's really long!, and I still might -- I have about 4 days left on break).
5. Got to hang out with my friend, Kate, who has been in Costa Rica since August.
6. Spent a lot of time with my family and a few friends.
7. Made two really great quesadillas.
8. Babysat.
9. Had an awesome Christmas with my family.
10. Finally played drums on Rock Band.

(Yes, I do realize several of those are pathetic, but some of them are pretty cool.)


May this new year be one of growth, strength, and a deeper knowledge of God's grace, love, and faithfulness for all of us. Please keep me in prayer as I begin a new semester and a new year. Let me know if there is anything specific that I can be praying about for you.